I’m going to do what I swore I’d never, ever do. So many people who read these days like to have face claims for the characters in the books. This post was originally going to be about a dream cast for Pete & Daisy. But as I started to write, I realized I was having trouble because I already had a real life face claim, for Pete, anyway, and he wasn’t an actor, he wasn’t famous.
For most of my stories, the guy is kind of loosely based on Harry Styles, who has to be one of the most attractive young men on the planet. But Pete wasn’t. I mean, he kinda was, because I was in that groove, with the hair and him being a musician, but not really, and I think that’s why he’s leapt off the page, and why so many beta readers had such a visceral response to him. I mean, he made so many laugh and cry, oh my god did he make them cry lol! Because he was so real to me. And that made him real to everyone.
But for the above reason, I didn’t want to give a face claim for Pete. And there was another reason: He was mine, a real person in my memory, and I didn’t want to share him with anyone.
So if you want to keep your own version of Pete, READ NO FURTHER, because there’s a picture down there.
When I was a teenager, back in the Dark Ages, I traveled through Italy on a very crowded train. A very crowded train. I mean, I don’t know what Italians do during the day, but at night, a bunch of them get on trains and go places, it seems.
I was nineteen, and I met a twenty-one year old boy named Riccardo. We talked for that one night, for six and a half hours, while sitting on the floor of that train, outside the bathroom, I kid you not. Through the window to our left, a moon hung over the Adriatic, giving the whole floor-outside-the-bathroom thing just the right amount of romantic ambiance. It was sweltering, and I remember little trickles of sweat near his temples.
I have no real memory of what we talked about, isn’t that weird?
All I remember is a feeling, of discovery, of beginning, of greed, of wanting to talk more, know more. And I remember not being able to look directly at his face because he was too handsome. The left side of my body, the side closest to him, was warm.
So we exchanged addresses when he got off the train, agreeing to keep in touch, and I went off to Greece, then to Japan for school, and I sent post cards to all the new friends I’d made in Europe, including the handsome, interesting Italian with the delicious accent. He wrote back, and we began a correspondence, like on paper, with pens. It was so fun!
Our letters got longer and longer, more and more personal. Three years later, when I was finishing school in Santa Cruz, California, we finally made plans to meet. Keep in mind that at no time was this friendship anything more than that, at least not officially. I had boyfriends during that time, and he had girlfriends. But wowza.
At the last minute, he couldn’t come because he got a summer job that was too lucrative to pass up, in his home town, near where his mother lived. His parents were divorced, and he worried about his mom and was very close to her, so the chance to spend a summer with her was also a bonus (I know, right?).
This was before computers, cell phones, all that good stuff. I was worried, then irritated, then pissed off. I told my roommates he’d better be in a coma or dead, that no other excuse would do, and there would be hell to pay when I found out he was carousing at the beachside resort with his new girlfriend or whatever.
So you know what comes next, right?
After three months, I got a letter from Italy in a handwriting I didn’t recognize, and when I opened it, a newspaper clipping fell out. It had Riccardo’s picture, and I could tell, just from looking at the picture, that he was dead. The article described how he’d been in a car, driving his girlfriend home late at night, when a truck coming in the other direction had crossed the median and struck them head on (I’d begun taking Italian at school, for obvious, nebulous reasons). They’d needed the jaws of life to pry open the car to retrieve his body.
His girlfriend had been thrown clear.
So my world got dimmer for a while, like someone turned down the sun.
I’ve kind of kept in touch with his mother, though it’s difficult, given the language barrier. She’s a lovely woman, though of course she’d have to be, to have produced such a marvelous son.
Anyway, all of Pete’s mannerisms, habits, even his speech patterns, come from my brief physical memories of Riccardo during that six hour train ride, and from his long letters. I remember his voice, how he sounded, the way he moved his hands when he talked, the way his fingers felt when he touched my face (yeah, he did that 🤗).
So what I’m including down here is just a photograph of a photograph, because I’m technologically challenged, and I apologize for that, okay? This isn’t the only picture I have of him, but it is the one that shows most clearly how I see him. I think this also explains why Pete is nearly always shirtless in the book!
I sent this photograph to the woman who drew my cover, and I think she did a good job of capturing him.
And I feel good that I’ve immortalized him in such a permanent way. Is Pete a lil bit perfect. Yeah. Because he was, you know?
June 1, 2018 @ 1:58 pm
It’s really wonderful that you have cherished all the moments and Pere and Daisy is a tribute to him. A really kind and pure soul. Pete is not an actor or a character, he is a person which you told us about. I am really happy that you are remembering your friend in this beautiful gesture. He is here, truly immortal, in your words. It is eally good to hear from you outside Wattpad.
June 1, 2018 @ 2:18 pm
Yes, I was really happy to honor him this way. I didn’t even realize how much of him was seeping into Pete until I noticed I always wrote he wasn’t wearing a shirt, or that his middle name was Riccardo, and that they named their cat Piccina, which was Riccardo’s cat’s name…
June 2, 2018 @ 7:40 am
it’s wonderful that you unconsciously wrote Pete based on Riccardo, and i personally am a fan of the character that is Pete but knowing he is a reality and not an imaginative character makes him special (for lack of better words).. thank you for sharing this bit with us
June 2, 2018 @ 12:25 pm
At first, I didn’t even realize I was doing it, you know? I just thought he was a good looking, kind character who happened to be Italian. But when I kept writing that he didn’t like to wear shirts, I figured out that I was writing based on my memory of that train ride and the photograph I had. But, yeah, he was really special to me. So glad you enjoyed my work…